Restless

I can not understand how I can feel so out of place and restless!
I just don't seem to feel like I'm home. It feels like I'm on holydays
in jeppis and going back soon. Every one asks me if I'm going back and I just wanna
say yes I'm. Maybe not back to lanzarote but back to animation.

Well I'm happy I have a crazy sister how said yes when I asked her to come with me.
I don't care where any place is good for me but we seem to have decided last minut trip.
Like mallorca or somewhere like that :D Somewhere we can relax and party :D

Me and Ida have know eatch other since we were small.
She is my baby sister and togheter we always seem to have the best time. Since we were small we both hade fitness as our second home and we went crazy. Think to small girls having a gym as their play ground :P You could not ask for more.

I just want to travell all summer long! Barcelona, madrid, new you the big citys but what I really want to do is travel around asia! Well it will have to wait but I will do it!

In the evening it is time for some Hanna Emet crazy ideas! Let's see what she comes up with this time. I never seem to be bored here thanks to my crazy friends.
So I will try not to drive them to crazy so they play with me

Books are fun ;)

Study

 

25 may I have my test to start university! I really have to focus because the book is not hard but you really need to understand what you are reading!

It is not always easy to find the focus to study.
Sometimes I just have to mutch energy. I lose my focus easy and I can not sit still for long.
My energy level is both good and bad. I love that I just can keep going even if I'm tired because I have so mutch energy that I can stil keep on jumping and smiling like I'm not tired at all.
But sometimes like when I need to sit still it can be a bit hard.

Well like everything in life it has its good and bad points.
At least my dog is happy I have a lot of energy and I need to take breaks in my study.
That means I go and play with him. But today he is being a bit boring and just want to sleep.
Well he is not running away from like he did 2 days a go.

Back to my books <3 Later fitness and 1 hour muscel training! Maybe that will kill some of the energy that never seem to die :P

Besos a todos <3

Home again

It feels a bit unreal to be back home. Been home now 2 days and I have seen my friends and my family but a part of me stil miss the life in lanzarote. The sun the heat and all the memories I have. I have been through  all the pictures I have and I will make this big big frame with all the pictures. So all the memories can been seen by other ppl.

Well I have had a great 2 days! Went to see Hannas game today, o'learys yesterday. Getting back to the life of jeppis. Jeppis dose not really change. It can bee the thing you hate the most some times with this town but when you come back from being away it is nice. You know what you come home 2 :P
Saturday they all betted that the wild child was going to melody to party but in your faces you lost money. I did not go!! PROUD!!!
Saw barca go down and then bed. Today just chilling and easy! This month is focus on studing! I really want to get in! If i start this year or next we will se but get in at least.

I learnd not to plan a head to mutch! I still remember the list of rules I made for lanzarote. I will not do this, I will not do that and so on. I think I broke them all the first weekend and week there. And I'm happy I did, So never say never and don't plan to much a head! The best way to learn is to have an open mind!

So I will go back to my friends maraton now and just relax.
<3 besos a todos

By the way! I don't know how to talk any more in spain they made fun of my spanish! SOME PPL! And now I'm home and my parents laugh at me now because my spanish has changed!! Can not win with any one! :P VALE!!!

Last days

Can't understand still that I'm going back. That I'm leaving this life. Don't think that it has not crosed my mind to stay. At first I did not know if I wanted to stay for me or for the life I made here. But now after not depending on any one I know that I would stay for the job. Some times it feels like it is made for me. I get to dance, to be with kids and to be silly. At the same time I know that this is nothing I can do for ever. I need to think about the futur a littel bit.

I have never seen my self as a grown up. I'm 21 and still have a lot to learn, do and experience. I'm still trying to find out what I want. But this trip made me see that I need to be responsible. Even if I would love to stay I also need to study. And animation will always be here. The girl that took my place in my hotel is 35 years old and was her first experience in animation. It is never to late to change to try something new.

So let's enjoy the last days now. Going with Angel so he can go shopping and I can cry because I can't. My bag is 20 kg and my hand bag is 10 so no space for anything :( I would looooove to shop some more. But but! :P

Good bye for now :D

SORRY!

I know I have not done my job and I have not written like promise in english or done it at all. But It has been a crazy month!

Break ups, easter and a lot of work. But now I have 5 days and I'm going back to finland. A lot of mixed feelings. Happy to go home and sad to leave my life here. My friends and my work. Now that it was going so mutch better.

Easter was crazy! The hotel was full boked!! We worked a lot but it payed of. We got the highest scores in child care of all H10 hotels!! And every one was so happy! It was so nice to see my Capos face when we did so good :D So I worked in the best hotel ever :D and every bad thing in the team was forgoten


But all I can say that even if I knew this would not last for ever. Not my stay here or you and me. I will never regret anything. I'm so happy I took a chance with coming here, with you and me. Will alway have a peace of my heart in Lanzarote! I meet here the most wonderfull ppl. And even if work was hard and some times I just wanted to leave. It made me stronger! I learnd so mutch about me and life. I hope I get to come back here some day. I never thought that I could love like this or love this job so mutch. I will remember all good andthe time it feelt hard is life lessons.
But all good things come to an end. And I will look as this 6 months as the best of my life. Thank you lanzarote and thank you all the wonderfull ppl I got to meet here. All the familys that made me a part of their holidays and my kids that made my day.



Now 5 days with my guys. They were so nice and let me stay and show me the last of lanzarote :D

Besos finlandia los veo pronto :D